The anchor point for this week was the constant motion throughout my body. I didn't need to find or name the exact location of the main body sensation, just note it and direct my awareness to it.
7/9 I "ping-ponged" to different aches and pains in my body.
7/10 At lease with breathing I had something "solid" to anchor to. I'm not sure if I'm noting my body right--I bounce from one ache to another. Nothing "lights" up. Maybe I'm just noticing the different sensations and focusing too early and not giving anything a chance to "light up".
7/13 I tried something different t for a few minutes--I tried to "find" each body part. It was the best part of my 8 minutes but it didn't last very long and doing it twice didn't work. I'll have to try slower next time.
7/14 Noting body sensations has made me aware of how achy and stiff my bod is--this isn't a favorite. :)
(Side note--In the next chapter I learned about a monk who had the inability to accept his discomforts. That was my problem during week 3--I made judgement about my sensations.)
Week 4--This Magic Moment
This week's technique was about being present in the moment. It was about being here now instead of elsewhere or elsewhen. I was supposed to label my thoughts "past" or "future", release it and notice the space around it. That space is the present.
7/16 My type 2 nature wants more details, but I hear my husband say "don't make it harder." I want to know how to surrender, how not to resist thoughts, how to allow things.
7/18 There are about 2 minutes when I might be feeling "present". I am able to release my thought and I feel like I'm swinging in the space between past and future. I have to label the thought--think "past" or "future", then think "release" then say to myself "enjoy the space left behind". That helps.
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